That dont impress me much

Terasa sungguh lucu (bukan lucah yek) bila nengok gelagat sesetengah manusia yang beriya2 nak bergaya tapi bukan atas hasil usaha senirik.....in short, bergaya dgn harta hasil titik peluh orang tua mereka.

Dont get me wrong, memang kedua org tua aku tak tinggalkan harta (cuma sekadar sebuah rumah sewa utk aku di atas tanah milik mereka, but that's another story) tapi bagi aku, harta yg paling bernilai yg kedua org tua ku beri adalah education.  Kesungguhan bapak aku berhempas pulas bekerja demi untuk memastikan kami berempat beradik dapat pendidikan yang terbaik.  Pendidikan terbaik di sini tidak bermaksud hantar kami ke international school....hanya sekolah biasa aje.....

Aku masih ingat lagi, time belajar full time dulu, bila cuti semester bermula, maka aku pun mula mengunjungi job agency untuk mencari kerja part time.  Maka, aku pernah lah bekerja part time jadi receptionist, sales secretary, secretary biasa di beberapa syarikat MNC sekitar PJ.  In fact, I could remember there's one incident whereby syarikat nie memang teramat memerlukan receptionist dan sanggup meminta ku sambung bekerja dengan mereka sehingga hari terakhir cuti semester.  Maka for that particular semester, memang aku tak bercuti lah kiranya.  Dengan duit bekerja part time tu ler aku bayar yuran semester yang baru and I'm proud of it.

Ok, back to what I found out today.  Beriya2 lah seseorg nie menepek gambo kat facebook menunjukkan gambo 3 buah motor berkuasa besar......seolah2 semua itu adalah kepunyaannya walhal ketiga2 motor itu adalah kepunyaan bapa nye....Yes, sometimes all we need is recognition and the feeling of acceptance tapi dengan menggayakan harta org lain?? hello......dari buang masa menepek menghabiskan harta benda mak pak tu, ada baiknye pergi cari rezeki yang halal dan tak payah menipu orang lagi......berkat tau rezeki yg dicari dgn hasil tangan dan kuderat sendiri....

Orang yg sama gak pernah bergebang dgn aku dulu, yg bapanya baru membeli dua buah semi D next to each other in KL.....And response aku masa tu ialah, "well, yg berharta tu bapak u....in a way I'm proud coz ada malay mampu beli 2 biji rumah semi D in KL...but personally, I'm least bothered coz itu harta bapak u, not yours.  I'm thankful with what I have now.....ada tempat berlindung, ada kenderaan utk pergi mencari rezeki and that's more than enuf for me.....whatever that I could have after that would be a bonus for me".....

Conclusion nye, tak perlu nak impress aku dgn harta benda yg bukan kepunyaan diri sendiri.  Definitely I'm not a gold digger that uses my charm to make a rich man fall for me.  If I want something, I'll work hard to ensure that I could afford to have it by myself.  And that explains why after 5 years, baru ler terdetik hati aku nk berhijrah daripada menggunakan handphone zaman dinasour kepada handphone terkini.....Bak bait lagu sapa tah "well, you've got a car....that dont impress me much"......

Nota kaki:  Desperate sgt ke sehingga terpaksa tayang benda2 mewah so that ada yg akan jatuh hati??  Kasihan sungguh dengan orang macam ni.

Easy listening for the week

Hati ini bukan milik ku lagi, seribu tahun pun akan ku nanti kan mu....

Not so wordless wednesday

Tea for 2, now, what should I prepare??

Should I prepare this.....

or this.......

or both??

or something else?? 

Nota kaki:  Dah lama tak buat tea party......hinggakan terlupa apakah juadah yg aku mahir nak sediakan.....huhuhu

Things that I look for before being in a relationship

Ok, tonite tetiba sampai ler seru utk iolss berciter pasal what I look for in a guy.....

Firstly, dont get me wrong...I can talk and mix with almost all type of people tapi there are certain qualities that I look for in a guy (before I wanna be in a relationship).

Yang pertama-tamanya....saya nie sebenar nye (saya rasa lah kan) seorang yg terlalu matang for my age.  I have few friends that are of the same age with me tetapi saya berani mengatakan mereka pun tak sematang saya.  Please, faham nie yek....matang tak bererti old school or kolot...Matang dari segi cara berfikir, cara membuat keputusan dan the way I look at live.  Based on my experience lah kan, I find it difficult to be in a relationship with a guy in my age group.....kalau mereka tua dari saya setahun dua pun, saya rasa, at the end of the day, I have to distance myself from them sebab saya rasa, saya yg akan byk bimbing mereka nanti....It should be the other way round.  Saya perlu kan bimbingan, bukannya membimbing lelaki...

Bercakap pasal cara berfikir, kadang2 cara saya berfikir tu memang out of the box and most of the time, tak "sajak".....Few times saya perasan perkara ni especially apabila ditegur oleh teman2 rapat saya.  Jadinya, any other ordinary guy around my age group would feel that I'm a threat to them.....coz they should be doing the thinking and not me.   They should take the lead.

And of course, the chemistry must be there.  This is something that we cant force, it comes naturally.  That's why kepada bakal teman rapat saya, be rest assured that insya allah hati saya tak berubah walaupun pada zahirnya saya kelihatan punya ramai kawan lelaki berbanding perempuan.  I have this system whereby kalau saya sudah anggap lelaki itu sebagai kawan saya dari hari pertama saya kenal dia, perkara itu akan register dlm otak saya sampai bila2.  And isteri2 kawan lelaki saya pun kenal dan mesra dgn saya coz mereka tahu saya tidak ada perasaan terhadap suami mereka.....Kalau tak percaya, sila lah interview kawan2 lelaki saya yg mana isteri mereka memang kenal saya.....

And satu lagi, I seek comfort in older guys....why?? Because they are wiser and have more experience than me.  And based on my experience dealing with older guys, I know that we have the same wave length (in terms of thinking) and I could relate to them better... Seriously, saya tak pernah berasa mereka ini lebih berusia kerana we could talk the same lingo and the way we look at live/issues is almost the same.  And I notice that these people are more comfortable liaising/dealing with me compared to my other counterparts...

So what is the conclusion here?  

Saya perlukan seseorang yg lebih berusia/matang daripada saya...yang boleh bimbing saya, yg boleh "control" saya kerana saya tahu, at times, I'm uncontrollable.....and I know guys around my age tak bisa nak control saya....Ada sekali tu, someone that I knew for quite some time pernah berkata "masa lagu nie keluar kat radio, you were not even born yet".  That shows the age gap between both of us....to be more precise, 20 tahun....Dear, I never notice that the age gap between us is that far apart.....The thing is, I feel comfortable and safe with you....though at times bila kita bertemu, kita tak berkata2 apa2 tapi I feel comfortable being beside you, not having a conversation but deep down I am happy to be with you....for me, silence doesnt kill or harm me when we are together....

Busy weeks ahead

Gonna be busy this month end.  Dah terdengar ura2 yg mengatakan I need to travel again....barangan dlm bag hari tu pun tak habis berkemas lagi, nie dah kena pack semula.

When my boss asked me last week, I told him that if possible, schedule the traveling to month end.  Kalo idak, lewat minggu depan dah kena terbang semula.....waduh, penat kena kurung dlm meeting room selama 3 minggu nie pun tak abis lagi, dah kena outstation pulok.....

No, I'm not grumbling......cuma terasa kepenatan sedikit.  Dah ler tadik my sister kata month end nie dia kena pergi outstation gak, so she wants to treat this as a short holiday for all of us.....and as always, aku ler kena drive bawak parents aku......aku ok aje, some more tempat yg nak pergi tu pun mmg aku sukaaaaaa sesgt.

I just need few days to stay at home and relax, I'm not asking too much, am I?

Nota kaki:  Need to complete my work and get all the necessary approval done before thursday next week.  Boss dah bagi green lite for me to cuti on hujung minggu depan.  Need to spend some quality time with my sayang....."wink, wink".....

1st Annual Dinner @ new opis

How should I dress up for the red carpet??

Should I dress up like this???

 

or like this??

 

very the syariah non-compliance.....heheheh

Nota kaki:  Should start looking around for fancy dress shop....there's task to be completed, i.e. sewa rambut palsu, shawl etc.....

Year end weddings

Wow, dah bersusun dah program utk next weekend.  There are few wedding invitations for us....semuanya di Shah Alam and menjemput seisi keluarga.  Family friends maaa.....boleh dikatakan kedua2nya adalah our extended family...

Jemputan terbaru telah diterima petang tadi.  This is the one yg bulan 5 hari tu kot kitaorg pg....anak angkat bonda ku.....ore klate....come2 belako deh.....Baru sat tadik mak aku kata yg aku kena attend on her behalf utk wedding anak angkat dia tu....The thing is, I believe they are more interested and looking forward to see my parents and not me...so, kena lar aku drag parents aku. 

The other wedding lak, jiran lama kami.....masa dia bertunang hari tu, kitaorg ada acara lain so tak dpt hadir.  Yg ni lak started early in the morning with khatam quran, to be followed by akad nikah and bersanding.....maybe this one kena balik awal coz got one more wedding kat area rumah kami....

Meriahnyeeee deme nie semua nak kawen.....Aku yg kepala pusing coz 2 hari berturut2 tu tak lepak kat rumah.....well, ada ke baju aku nk pg tgk org kawen nie??  Takkan nk cari yg baru kot??

Baju2 nie semua secondary issue for me.  Tarak hal, bukan depa tau pun kalo aku pakai baju opis kan?  hehehe....sebab aku spesis yg malas nk beli baju baru just utk attend wedding....tudung baru tu, may be lar kot...

Sejujurnya, terharu dan gumbira tgk adik2 aku nie semuanye dah berumahtangga....Tahniah adik2 ku....moga hidup rukun, aman damai dan bahagia hingga ke akhir hayat....

Jangan ditanya bila turn kakak ngkorang nie.....akak senirik pun tak ada jawapan nye tau...itu semua kerja yg kat atas sana tu.....Dia yg menentukan segalanya....

Wonderful Weekend

Absolutely agree with this.

Have a great weekend peeps.....

#Throwback #perasan......muahahaha

Disebabkan tak keluar lunch hari nie kan, and suasana dlm opis yg terlalu senyap coz majoriti dah keluar makan/solat jumaat, terasa nk menengok kembali saat2 indah bersama chenta hati mati (perasan), Mi Baby Nuor Jen.......

Ni thn 2010 kot.......kecoh gak among my circle of frens pasal gambo nie coz apparently ada a few of the photos yg keluar dlm paper and kelihatan aku menyelit....hahahah

 I like this candid shot....

These photos adalah thn 2011 or was it 2012??

Ada lagi 2 photo yg bakal mengundang kontroversi kalo di tepek di sini...maka nye, photo2 tersebut cuma layak menjadi hiasan di screen laptop saya sahaja lar....muahahahaha.

Pinkie

We blend together and get along very well..........or shall I say, we depend and rely on each other during hard times....we enjoy each other company's during good times...We have gone thru a lot of good, bad and hard times, together we stand......

Hopefully we will remain friends till our last breath.....

Hari sengal sedonia

Tadi I had late lunch....keje byk ler sekarang ni.  Pukul 2 baru terhegeh2 nak turun cari makan kat cafe.  My lunch mate seperti biasa, my staff....org kanan aku ler kiranye.  So far, I'm lucky enuf to have a reliable staff...dia yg byk bantu aku utk memahami kerja aku sekarang and someone can be depended on.

Tiba2 ler pulok terserempak dgn seseorang nie....Of late aku dh perasan, dia dok perati aje aku...lepas tu senyum2 kamben....aku buat biasa aje ler...Masa nk turun lunch tu, kami satu lift.  Tiba2 lak jugak staf aku nie naik isim (dia kata "saka dah masuk"...giler kan) terus aje buat observation kat seseorang nie yg kebetulan berdiri sebelah aku dlm lift.  We went to cafe together2 ler.....aku dgn staff aku, dia dgn staff dia.

Kebetulan pulak, boleh sama lauk yg kitaorg amek....siap dia tanya aku lagi dgn senyum simpul dia (dlm dialect Utara yg agak pekat....spoilll...muka sikit nye marketable...hehehe)..."Ini kari ayam kaaaa"??? Nak tergelak pun ada, tak padan bahasa dgn rupa....aku terus mengiyakan lar....lauk kami hari nie, tempe goreng and kari ayam, boley?? Itu pun lauk saki baki yg ada kat cafe.

I had my lunch together with my staff.....dia duduk dgn staff dia....Dan2 tu gak staff aku ckp "Lynn (panggilan manja aku kat opis baru...wakakkaka), dia nie mcm rimau simpan kuku.  Depan mmg nampak baik, sopan, lembut....pendek kata, pijak semut pun tak mati.  Ko cuma boleh berkawan dgn dia aje lar.....sebab personaliti tak sama....very different.  Kalo ko nk go serious, aku advice jgn....sebab tak seindah yg dia pamerkan...ada ciri2 baran dan ringan tangan wei.  Aku takut ko terkejut badak aje nanti"....boley staff aku berpikir sampai ke situ?? 

Aku just gelak aje lar......tak terpikir pun sampai ke situ.....lagipun opis kami tak sama...and some more, definitely kedudukan dia lebih tinggi dari aku.....department dia pun lagi ramai pompuan yg cun melecun dari aku yg selekeh aje bila pg keje nie (sejak dah tak jadi secretary, terasa malas sikit nak dress up...)

Itu lah selingan cerita utk hari ini......kepala dah naik weng sebab keje bertimbun....dah mula terasa bahangnye.....dah ler last week sepanjang minggu kena berkampung dlm meeting room....this week lak, non stop meeting, at least 2 meeting dlm sehari...by the time balik rumah, kemas2 sikit, terus lena.....

Nota kaki:  I need a break....hopefully I would be able to go some where after CNY next year....



Wordless Wednesday

Thinking deep.....

Of late, banyak benda yang bermain di fikiran ku.  Some I hate, some hurt me more than ever.  Ada beberapa perkara yg membuatkan hati ku terguris pedih.....especially after seeing some photos.....I wish I have the power to simply wipe off all those pain.  Kata orang, walaupun luka dah sembuh, parut tetap ada.  Bila penemuan baru muncul, the scar starts to bleed again, and berterusan.  How long more can I sustain and pretend nothing happened??

Maybe I should forget everything that had happened and go far away from here.....If that could be the best for everybody, then be it........