Sunday, September 22, 2013

Thanks but no thanks

Been quiet lately, firstly memang tengah busy......berkali2 keluar masuk meeting pasal budget 2014......then with the on-going projects yg sepatutnye kick off next year....appointments one after another jumpa potential vendors.....there's even one day yg aku kena attend 3 meetings in a day.....division meeting, then pg jumpa airline utk conclude agreement and petang tu, meeting dgn vendor.....mak aii.....I wonder how I can manage myself to be in 3 different meetings in one day.....heheheh.

Somewhere last 2 weeks, received a call from seseorg.....the offer was very tempting....and for someone yang very junior mcm aku, I feel so honoured that ada yg nampak kebolehan aku buat keje, ada kepercayaan pada capability aku utk perform in a much higher and challenging position.....it took me about one week to think about it.... my sayang kata ask my heart, what I really wanna do....I must learn to make decision and at the same time, while letting them know my decision, I must try not to offend anybody....

Bila discuss dgn my immediate superior, he wasnt really keen to talk about it....from what I gather dari those yg ada dlm meeting tu masa this message was conveyed, he is not ready to release me.....in a way, I'm glad I could not make it to the meeting because of the massive traffic jam pada hari itu....if only I'm in the meeting and being asked this question in front of everybody, mau nyer aku panik.....

And because of this offer juga, dah mula kedengaran suara2 sumbang di office, yelar, not even one year dah dioffer sebegini rupa.....and those yg affected tu, mula dah tarik muka bila berselisih dgn aku.....I cant forget ada yg menyindir begini "yelah, org tu dpt keje kat sini sebab pakai cable broadband, semua org dia kenal, chairman pun dia blh call direct aje.....kita nie siapa".  Sungguh terkilan coz at that point of time, I have not made any decision......

Finally, hari Jumaat minggu lepas, seblm keluar pg meeting dgn airline, aku pg mengadap tuan punya badan yg meng"offer" tu...not the org tengah yg call aku tu.  I expressed my gratitude atas kepercayaan dia pada aku....and finally, I said the magic sentence "thank you for the offer, i'm so touched coz you could see the potentials in me.....thank you once again but regret I have to politely decline your offer coz I believe I'm still new here, tak sampai setahun pun lagi".....He accepted my decision although nampak kekecewaan pada wajah dia.....and I know, dia masih berharap coz dia ada kata "well anyway, the position is still open"......hmmm......

Then monday hari tu, org tgh yg call aku dtg jumpa aku utk bertanyakan keputusan.....I told him the same script......beria2 dia cuba brainwash aku to accept the offer......org tgh tu kata, kalau aku terima offer nie, "jalan" dah mudah utk aku.....since aku decline, dia kata, susah sikit ler for the org yg mengoffer....but it does not mean that benda tu settle mcm nie....if dia source around and tak dpt pengganti.....he will write officially to the relevant party to release me.....haduh.......itu kemudian citer....as at now, I'm comfortable with my job... this is my interest and passion....let me grow and groom myself with the function first.....

At the same time jugak........ada yg dah mula memujuk agar aku kembali ke pangkuan tempat lama......

Please try to understand, aku comfortable with what I'm doing now.....I get to meet a lot of new people, get to understand how to start off the business....macam2 perkara baru yg mana aku memang suka sangat.....who knows the experience that I have gained here might be useful for me should I want to get a franchise in the future....**wink, wink**

Nota kaki:  Citer pasal franchise, tetiba terasa nak makan subway sandwich lak....hehehe.  Oh ya, kena call the master franchisor next week to get the latest update.....

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Crazy For You

Swaying room as the music starts
Strangers making the most of the dark
Two by two their bodies become one
I see you through the smoky air
Can't you feel the weight of my stare
You're so close but still a world away
What I'm dying to say, is that

I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you, crazy for you

Trying hard to control my heart
I walk over to where you are
Eye to eye we need no words at all
Slowly now we begin to move
Every breath I'm deeper into you
Soon we two are standing still in time
If you read my mind, you'll see

I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
You'll feel it in my kiss

Because, I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you, crazy for you
Crazy for you, crazy for you

It's all brand new, I'm crazy for you
And you know it's true, I'm crazy, crazy for you
It's all brand new, I'm crazy for you
And you know it's true, yeah, I'm crazy for you
Crazy for you, baby