Fikir dulu seblm tulis

Rezeki, ajal maut semua kerja Tuhan.  Kesenangan, kestabilan ekonomi yg kita ada sekarang nie pun adalah kurniaan Allah, bukan manusia.

Moga-moga akan ada lagi penggiat seni seperti Faizal Tahir yang mampu menyatakan kebenaran yang hak.

Nota kaki:  Maaf, saya bukan penyokong mana2 parti politik.  Pada saya, sekiranya sesuatu kenyataan yg dibuat bercanggah dgn akidah dan rukun Islam, sudah menjadi tanggungjawab saya menyatakan yang hak.

Kenduri Doa Selamat & Kesyukuran - Sabtu, 27 April 2013

Maka tengah hari semalam telah selamat berlangsung acara Kenduri Doa Selamat & Kesyukuran keluarga kami. Event sepatutnya diadakan pada 20 April lepas tapi kami telah memberi laluan kpd keluarga cousin aku utk buat kenduri berkampung coz cousin aku nie nak menikah next Friday.....ok, no problem.

Pada masa yg sama, ada family member kitaorg yg telah membuat akikah kamben dan turut serta dlm kenduri kali nie. Alhamdulillah, bertambah rezeki utk dihidangkan pada para tetamu tadi.

Macam biasa, pasti ada lar yg suka nak "tunjuk pandai" dan serba tau....siap ckp "aku dah byk kali organise big event lar".....ada aku kesah? Dik, ahkak ko nie dah berjaya organise 8 AGM dan 1EGM public listed company, ahkak ada, ko ada ke?? Besar sgt ke event hurrah2 ko tu compared to AGM and EGM of a public listed company? Kalo tak de, syuhh....pg main jauh2...

Jam 12:30 geng surau abah aku tiba dan bacaan doa selamat serta tahlil pun bermula. By pukul 1, jemputan surau dah mula makan tengah hari.......As for relatives and friends, jamuan bermula dari jam 2 petang hingga 5 petang.

Where was I throughout the event?? Yes, pandai pun.....in order to avoid any commotion dgn spesis yg suka tunjuk pandai, serba tau dan cakap besar, aku telah dgn sukacita nye memberi "direct award" tender kepada diriku untuk jaga dapur dan buat drinks for the guests. So, sepanjang2 waktu tu ler aku duduk kat dapur: buat drinks, jaga lauk, basuh pinggan mangkuk/periuk belanga, masak air etc. At the same time, tugas aku juga adalah utk memastikan keadaan dapur adalah terkawal dan tidak kotor......hehehehe.

Ok, nie nak besau kan diri sikit nie.....ice lemon tea and teh tarik aku mendapat pujian ramai.....especially the teh tarik.......ramai yg kata teh tarik hasil air tangan ku setanding dgn rasa yg terdapat di restoran mamak......so, for now......teh tarik wonneeeehhh!! 

Buffet line di luar rumah

Kamben yg tergolek2 di tengah laman...hehehe

Side dishes for the kamben

Budak yg tergolek kerana kepenatan.....

My evil and cruel teh tarik.....

Trip to the dentist

Dalam banyak2 benda atas dunia nie, benda yg paling dan teramat ku takuti ialah lipas terbang (especially pada waktu malam, dunno why, very the paranoid) and trip to the dentist.  Ok, for the first fear factor tu, aku, so far dah berjaya atasi di rumah nie dgn menyediakan bekalan ridsect secukupnye dan juga keep my room and house clean all the time.  Rumah yg bersih bermakna tiada lipas....tapi kalo spesis liar, yg terbang mlm kat luar tu, den tak dapek nk nolong ler.....

And for the second fear factor tu, I guess it started way back before zaman milenium.  Masa tu aku jadik relief secretary kat sungai petani.  Seblm2 nie mmg aku suka berkunjung ke dentist utk buat check up, scalling and filling bagai.....rasa nak simpan gigi dlm peti kaca for display aje lps dh buat scalling, polishing and filling bagai.....tetapi yg membuatkan aku jadi phobia and paranoid dgn dentist adalah kerana satu insiden di sungai petani.

Masa tu dah almost due dah for dentist check up.  So, aku pergi ler cari dentist kat kawasan tu.  Ditakdirkan pada hari tu, dentist lain semuanya fully booked except for this one dentist.  So aku pun apa lagi, nganga mulut utk diperiksa ler.  Imagine this, lps korang dah nganga molot, lampu direct kat mata korunk, then this dentist terus bukak lagu classical ok.....yg ada tune turun naik, tinggi rendah tu......dia kata nk buat patient relaks, aku ok lg time tu.  Tapi bila dia start scalling tu, time tu nada lagu tu naik laju, apa lagi tangan dia pun terawang2 bagai dia conductor for the orchestra.......giler kentang kan!! time tu aku dah tak leh buat apa, cuma berdoa agar pipi dan lidah aku tak berlubang disebabkan kelalaian dia.  Dah ler dentist tu tua, rambut dah serupa mcm einstein.....lg paranoid.....di tambah pula time tu ada movie baru release yg bertajuk "The Dentist"....imagine this, you combine all the scary elements and you get, ME!!!   The most paranoid patient in this whole world!!

Lepas insiden tu (luckily tak ada sebarang kecederaan fizikal, cuma badly injured emotionally aje....hehehe) aku memang dah pangkah perkataan DENTIST tu besau2!!  Pg pun setahun sekali aje......and memang takut giler while waiting for my turn.

2 minggu lepas, disebabkan filling lama nie terkeluar, aku terpaksa mengadap dentist semula.  It can't be help, I had to do a "crowning", gigi geraham lak tu.  Mula2 dah nak blah dah tapi dentist tu berjaya pujuk aku masa tu and aku pn dah tak sanggup lagi sakit gigi, aku pun tadah ler mulut.  Masa dia nak kecikkan gigi tu, mmg ler sakit....walaupun dah dibius......balik dari dentist, pipi aku kebas sebelah wei!!!  Mcm kena stroke lak aku rasa, sebelah muka tak ada rasa.  Then selepas 6 hari, crowning pun dah siap utk dipasang.

Masa dia nak insertkan crowning tu, dia tolak sekuat tenaga kat gusi aku.......aku cuma mampu melolong aje ler.....air mata dah tak boleh nak keluar dah.....after 5 minutes (which to me, it feels forever)......baru ler dia lepaskan........

Dentist nie pun cakap, dia pun berpikir lebih dari 2 kali kalo aku dtg in near future utk buat crowning lagi satu.....sebab dia kata, aku adalah the most difficult patient he ever came across!!  Pardon me doctor, I blame it to the previous dentist whom I visited when I was in sungai petani, dia penyebab mengapa aku paranoid dan phobia dgn "klinik gigi" for the rest of my life!!

Acuan gigi ku......sorry, gigi ku tak berterabur....hehehehe

Jodoh Pasti Bertemu (Lyrics)

My current addiction, the song by Afgan titled "Jodoh Pasti Bertemu".....

...........jika aku.....bukan jalanmu

ku berhenti mengharapkan mu

jika aku memang tercipta untuk mu

ku kan memiliki mu.........jodoh pasti bertemu.....

Busy katanya......

Yes, I've been very busy lately, to the extent tak de masa dan kesempatan nak touch base with all my Bffs.  Just like last Friday, aku dah setuju awal2 lg nk join my geng a.k.a. bff for private luncheon session at Sime Darby Convention Center.  Sekali, hambek ko.....mmg diaorg proceed without me lar.....coz tetiba aje ada benda urgent nak kena buat.....projek negara lar kata kan.....

In fact today, I feel lucky coz one of my bffs who happened to be here, drop by and said hi to me.  Kalo idak, mmg tak tau ler bila lg aku blh merafak sembah kat depa......

Dulu, category busy aku tu.....lain.  Sekarang, category busy aku......very the different.  Not like before.  Pasal tu sikalang bila weekend, mmg payah ler aku nk keluar2 pg hurrah2 ke mana2.....I prefer to be at home and qadha waktu rehat dan tido yg tertunggak.

Lama tak jumpa si Nad ni.....Thanks for dropping by....

Nota kaki:  Other people also busy tau....they don't just sit around, doing nothing, and waiting for calls and messages.  Luckily there's FB, kat situ ler sessi menjoyah dan laser melaser sesama bff.......I miss uolsss, my BFFs.......

Two less lonely people

After the demise of my late fiancee, I started to implement "close door" policy.  I find it difficult to open up to people and and let anyone really get to know me.  I begin to appreciate the "me time with myself" and thus, I do not see the need to be acquinted to anybody.

I do have some close friends and I really appreciate them for helping me to pull my act together and stand on my feet again.  Then again, I still enjoy the feeling of being a lone ranger, doing things that I never had the chance to do before.  I remember that when I was mourning, there was this one guy (relative of my late fiancee) that had been calling me on regular basis, asking how was I coping and he did ask me to go out with him.   Luckily, though I was mourning, I still can think straight enough to just decline his request.  Then, he stopped calling me till today, thank God!

Somehow early this year, someone whom I have known for the past few years, get to be in contact with me.  After chatting with him, he told me that he is now a divorcee.  He divorced his wife last year, on the reason of there is no understanding and suitability for each other.

It caught me by surprise after knowing his divorce.  We have been communicating on regular basis and I do feel comfortable talking to him.  Of late I realise, he is trying his best to get to know me better, in short, trying to be really close to me.  I notice of late that his messages are getting more personal (itu pun delayed by few days, baru aku faham maksud message2 dia tu).  I pretend like I dont understand whatever the in between lines. 

Maybe we are two lonely people whom are connected to each other by situation.  Now, I tend to "chicken out" with the latest development.  I am comfortable with what I have now, and I find it really difficult to open up, more so to accept someone new in my life now.  I am still hesitating as to whether should I give him a chance to get to know me better or should I just go with the flow.  I try not to think about it too much.....I am busy now with my office work, that could drag till July this year.

As for now, I have to admit that I do need someone to be there for me...my shoulder to cry on, my companion whom I could share my deepest secrets, my views, and my stories.......and after almost 4 years of being alone, I find more difficult to open up to anyone new (though I must say, there is someone whom I have known for years, is always there for me, maybe).  Some of my friends told me, give him a fair chance but how can I do it when I myself feels I'm not that ready with the latest development? 

Where do I go from here?  To still be in contact with him could mislead him into believing that our feelings are mutual, which is not. 

Sebenarnya, aku takut untuk kecewa lagi......aku tak mau bersedih lagi........aku tak mau hati ku luka lagi.....not for now......

Nota kaki:  One of my friends say this to me "kenapa perlu ditunggu yg tak pasti perasaannya terhadap kamu....kamu ibarat menunggu buah yg tak jatuh.  Yg ada depan mata, kenapa harus kamu tolak?"  People can say whatever they wanna say, but finally, it's up to me to decide what's best for me.....

Jalan2 Cari Pasal - Port Dickson and Seremban - 13 April 2013

 

 

As agreed, last Saturday, kitaorg pn proceed dgn plan utk buat Jalan2 Cari Pasal....lama tau tak keluar dgn geng2 ni, so, we decided to arrange for 1 outing.

 

Destinasi yg dituju, Port Dickson.  Mcm mana blh nak pg sana, all decided to be there spontaneously.  So, dari opis, we took the trunk road via Kg Jijan and bila dh sampai Seremban 2, kitaorg teruskan perjalanan ke PD melalui kawasan Bukit Pelanduk and keluar masuk highway PD kat Bandar Springhill.

 

 

I did use this trunk road years back....rupa2nya tak ada apa2 perubahan pun.  We had lunch there, makan2 and then turun ke Seremban for tea.......sempat menapau kuih yg femes di Ampangan tu and then pg pekena sup kamben kat Kg Sentosa seblm buat last food stop at Stadium Paroi utk menapau Popia Kuala Kangsar (motif??? popia kuala kangsar and dijual di seremban).

 

 

Sampai kat opis balik dlm kul 6 petang....overall, we had a great time.....just bebel2 among the 3 of us dlm keter, keluar keter dan masuk balik dlm keter......

 

 

By this month end, nak arrange satu lg trip.......destination, tak confirm lagi.....have car, will travel kaedahnye kitaorg nie.......

 

Us, strolling by the beach.....panas lit2 wei....

 

The jalan2 cari pasal crew....

Kembar tak seiras......Mi twin bruder....

Our lunch.......biasa2 aje.....

Cendol Hj Sharif in Seremban

Kuih tradisional for tea....location:  Ampangan, simpang ke Kuala Klawang

 

The famous soup ayam and kamben at Kg Sentosa, Paroi.....Sup kamben nye memang mabeles....

Soup ayam......sedapss dan pekat