Sorry seems to be the hardest word...

I feel so guilty for troubling you.  In short, berbyk maaf kerana menyusahkan you untuk kesekian kalinya.

After receiving your short message, perasaan bersalah tu semakin bertimpa2 dan berganda2. Kita tidak ada apa2 pertalian and yet you are willing to help me to the best you could.  How can I ever repay your kindness??

Then another thought came through my mind....I should stop menyusahkan orang lain... I shouldn't let other people suffer due to my mistakes and carelessness.  Above all, I shouldn't be in contact with you at all because.....(i just can't finish my sentence). 

Terharu dan sebak rasanya sewaktu meluahkan apa yg terbuku di dalam hati pada saat ini.  Only God knows what's in my heart and mind at the moment.  Hanya Tuhan yg tahu pengakhiran cerita kita.....and I always pray that whatever the ending is, it will be the best for both of us......be it positive or negative.....But the thing is, the longer it drags, semakin byk hati yg akan terluka......

Should I stay or should I just let it go?

Mucho gracias for lending me a hand again.  I really appreciate that, dear.  Insya Allah, I'm working out on something and would try to repay your kindness soonest possible.

Nota kaki:  While writing this short posting, one thing I realise is that I miss you terribly.....

KUL-KCH-BKI-KUL

Last week was traveling week for me.  I was assigned to visit our outlets in KCH and BKI and find new business opportunities.  It was a very tiring and yet fruitful week.  Managed to conclude 2 new business opportunities and identify new products to be introduced to our outlets.

Kitaorg started dgn KCH dulu since the outlet is quite small, hence we only needed 1 day to be in KCH before heading to BKI.  This was my first trip to KCH, not knowing what to expect.  Tapi the flight was really bumpy.....kecot pewutttt wei.....asyik gegar2 aje plane sepanjang perjalanan.  

The next day we took the first flight out to BKI.  Another rough journey, I could say.  Tak henti2 mulut berzikir sepanjang perjalanan (ditakdirkan pd petang yg sama, sebuah pesawat kecil terhempas di Kudat.  Yes, sepanjang kami di sana, mmg cuacanye hujan lebat dan angin kuat).  Touch down aje terus bergegas buat keje.  In short, mmg sepanjang kitaorg kat dua2 tempat, mmg dipenuhi dgn buat keje aje.  Cuma bisa pg makan malam, itu pun after 7 p.m.

Overall, memang I learnt a lot of new things sepanjang perjalanan kali ini.  Byk aspek2 operasi yg dipelajari yg mana seblm nie mmg aku tak tau pun.  It does enrich my knowledge and experience.

Next trip tak tau bila lagi but I would want to be in KK again.  I'm planning to gang up few of my friends and arrange for our holiday in KK.  Banyak sungguh tempat2 menarik yg tak sempat dilawati lagi.....at least bila pergi bercuti, dpt cover semua tempat2 menarik nie.

Maaf, atas sebab2 yg tidak dpt dielakkan, gambo2 tidak dpt diupload di dlm belog dan juga facebook.

Nota kaki:

 Sayang, bila kita nk pg honeymoon kat KK, at Sutera Harbour to be exact??  Very the romantic tau tempat tu......"wink, wink".

Prepared with love

Sebenarnye memang I cook on regular basis.  Cuma sekarang jarang nak upload coz malas.  So, bila angin rajin tu datang, baru ler boleh berkongsi citer.

Of late sgt2 teringin nak makan roasted chicken.  I dont really fancy those available in the market coz kebanyakannya tidak memenuhi selera ku and often I find that the chicken is very dry and no longer juicy, which a big no no.

So dua hari lepas, selama 2 hari berturut2, aku masak roasted chicken for dinner.  Mmg best bila meratah the chicken and the veg.....cooked up to my standard tastebud.....Depa pun enjoy gak...something for a change.

That reminds me yg dlm fridge ada 3 slices of salmon and some prawns.  Maybe besok nk buat grilled salmon with chives sauce (similar mcm yg available at ikea food court) and prawn cocktail......yummy.....

Half way done....a bit more roasting will do the trick

 

Our dinner.....maaf, presentation mmg hancus.....hehehe

Rezeki kucing

Ini cerita semalam.  Aku pergi membeli belah di pasar raya peneraju harga rendah **wink, wink**.

Aku tgk harga makanan kucing jenama Friskies tu RM12.99 for 1.5 kg, which is cheap coz tempat lain jual pada harga yg lebih tinggi.  So, aku pun amek satu bag ler utk kucing2 ku.

Sampai aje kat cashier, bila dia scan benda tu, terus harga berubah kepada RM17.29!! Giler kan, banyak beza tu.....kenapa besar sgt variance nye when the price quoted kat shelf tu, harga lain.

Aku pun dah mula buat bising kat cashier.....Dia suh aku pergi ke Customer Service Centre tempat tu utk mendapatkan refund.  Budak tu pun pg check kat rak tu and confirm kan mmg diaorg tak update price lagi.  So dpt ler refund.  And maybe dia tgk aku hangen semacam aje tadikan, dia bg byk free samples......Alhamdullillah...rezeki kucing2 ku.....merasa gak ler kucing2 ku beserta kucing jiran dpn rumah berpesta dgn free samples...

Conclusion is, rajin2 check harga barangan diaorg, mmg akan ada price discrepancy ler...this is the second time benda nie jadik....last week pun camtu gak....pasal tu aku extra alert bila pg beli barang kat situ....

The purchase together with the freebies....banyak kan.....

In loving memory of.......

Time really flies....diam tak diam dah 4 tahun berlalu.....At times when those memories came flashing back in my mind, I could only sedekahkan al fatihah buat dia....moga dia tenteram dan aman di sana.....

I try not to recall that day.....the day that changed the way things were.....I was there dari mula dia nazak dan pada saat dia menghembuskan nafas terakhir nya pun aku masih berada di sisi dia.....I can still remember how I drove him all the way to the hospital, with oxygen tube attached to his nose....how he was at that time.....struggling to breathe.....

I can still remember how the doctor told me that he had passed on.....my whole world came crumbling down.....he's gone just before subuh prayer, on a friday morning.....I could still recall how he was taken to the mortuary, to be cleaned and "kafan".....I was in tears.....but at that point of time, I could still think straight....I informed all his siblings, cousins.  We had discussed before that should anything happen to him, we agreed to entrust one of his closest cousins to be in charged for his funeral.....alhamdulillah, he had his wish granted.....

He did mention that if he could have his way, he wanted to go peacefully, no suffering (hospitalised) not for a long time, and to be buried next to his father in his hometown...Somehow I could say that Allah granted all his wishes....He got what he wanted......Died on a friday, not suffering for long time, buried next to his father and his cousin was in charged for his funeral.....

 If I were to write in details, I could burst out crying again.....On this exact day, I would want to remember you for who you were, how things were and all those good memories of you....

Farewell dear.....may you rest in peace.....

Al fatihah, moga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas kamu dan ditempatkan kamu dikalangan mereka yg beriman.....