Wordless Wednesday

Wishes

If only I could, I would wish that I could hear your voice again.....I wish that I could talk to you again....share with you all the stories that had happened ever since you were gone...talk with you for hours like what we used to do.....Laugh at your jokes....do the things we used to do together such as driving around, watch kids playing football at the field....etc.  I wish I could hold you in my arms once again....

All these are only my wishes...I know for definite that it would never happen again.....I wish you joy, I wish you happiness wherever you may be now....

KUL-KCH-MYY-LBU-BKI-KUL

Buat kesekian kalinya dlm jangkamasa 2 bulan, aku ditugaskan utk cover semua destination yg tertera di atas.  Mission kali ini adalah utk membuat evaluation and observation as to whether we could open outlets there.....Tempoh perjalanan, 4 hari 3 malam.

First day of traveling started on I6th December....we cant book a later flight coz semuanya penuh.  So, at 5:30 a.m. aku dah terpacak kat KLIA, together with my colleague and boss.  Muka sekor2 mcm zombie aje.....Flight pukul 7 pagi.....sampai KCH around 8:45 a.m.....hambek ko....terus berduyun2 kitaorg ke outlet di sana.

Selepas buat inspection, kitaorg masuk semula ke departure area to evaluate the performance of one fast food outlet kat situ......Pi mai, pi mai.....kitaorg keluar dari terminal jam 4 petang....terus ke 2 shopping complexes to check on the latest F&B trend in town.....

Had early dinner kat Singapore Chicken Rice in Spring Mall.  How come I never know food offered kat sini sedapssss.......

Lepas dinner, we took a taxi back to airport, amek luggage bagai and terus ke hotel utk check in.  We stayed in Pullman Hotel.

I7th December

2nd day of traveling and also 2nd day I woke up at 4:00 a.m.  Penat tak leh cakap....terus mandi dan bersiap2.....then check out.  Ada kejadian terjadi, kitaorg dah pesan dgn hotel, to pack our breakfast so that we could have it masa kat airport.  Sampai dah check out baru ler depa perasan kitaorg tak dapat breakfast lagi......Cepat2 ler depa hulur kat kitaorg our packed breakfast.  The same taxi driver took us to the airport.

Sampai airport pukul 5:30 pagi.....terus check in.  Then we had breakfast at our outlet there.  Flight time again kul 7 pagi....semua tertido kepenatan.  Then we landed kat MYY.  Transit kat situ around 2 jam lebih seblm meneruskan perjalanan ke LBU.  Masa kat MYY, kitaorg buat gak some observation and study.....around kul I2, board on a MAS Wings flight to LBU.  First time naik plane yg kecik and ada propeller kat luar....kecut perut wei especially bila plane tu senget2...terasa nak muntah....

Sampai kat LBU around I:00 tgh hari....Visited our duty free outlet then the staff took us around the airport seblm kitaorg jumpa Airport Manager.  Had a brief discussion and the Airport Manager took us around the airport.  We had lunch about half and hour after that.  We departed from there.....one of the staff sent us to the hotel around 2:30 p.m. In LBU, we stayed at Grand Dorsett Hotel.  Best giler hotel nie, wifi free.......

About 2 hours after check in, kitaorg took a stroll kat Ujana Kewangan, the one and only shopping complex in LBU.  Surveyed the area then we had early dinner kat Medan Selera sebelah Dorsett Hotel.  Kat sini mmg kitaorg kena sembelih ler, bayangkan daging masak merah depa charge almost 20 hengget utk sorang makan.....giler ke hapa.

Around 9:00 p.m kitaorg took a cab to the airport again.  Nak observe the night crowd pada waktu malam.  Balik ke hotel semula around II:00 p.m., itu pun selepas aku nyaris tersembam ke meja....hehehehe.

I8th December

Had breakfast then kitaorg siap2 nak check out.  Sampai airport, terus letak barang and kitaorg pg lepak (to observe the morning crowd) kat Old Town White Coffee.  Ada kejadian berlaku masa nie, my colleague tak sihat....berpusing satu airport nak cari minyak cap kapak.....hinggakan boss suh aku pg cari dia kat mana.

After check in, kitaorg pun naik flight ke BKI.  Sampai BKI tepat jam I:30 p.m.  Terus menuju ke outlet kitaorg.....tak sengaja, the outlet manager pun turun ke kedai tu.  Had lunch seblm meneruskan misi berikutnye.......

Around 7:00 p.m we check in kat Klagan Hotel.  Itu pun coz my colleague dah mabuk darat dan nak muntah2.  She decided to stay in the room while aku, boss and outlet manager keluar dinner.......Balik semula ke bilik jam I0:45 malam.

I9th December

Pg menyinggah Pasar Philippine jap, ada yg memesan ikan bilis, udang kering dan ikan masin.  Then, kitaorg check out dan terus berkampung kat airport.

I had lengthy discussion with outlet manager before my boss came to join us.  Lepas tu kitaorg pg visit another outlet......Sempat gak aku beli some chocolates utk anak buah kat umah.

Plane left BKI around 5:30 p.m. and touch down at KLIA around 9:00 p.m.

Overall, trip kali nie memang teramat memenatkan.  We achieved our mission and now banyak ler report kena siapkan.......

Dlm byk2 tempat kitaorg singgah, aku terasa nak berada lebih lama di BKI......I think I left my heart in BKI....I could never get bored there.......maybe because BKI reminds me of Penang kot, bandar tepi laut......

Nota kaki:  Yes, I could see you are trying to be close to me.....somehow I managed to buat tak faham aje....I notice that you are very observant, dok perati aje apa yg aku buat hatta apa yg aku makan.....I know the look in your eyes when you came to our room to collect your bags......again, I pretend that I dont understand.....you want to spend more time to get to know me right??  

The usual bebel-bebelan

Niat aku sewaktu mula mengubah penampilan ku adalah kerana tuntutan agama.  At the same time, aku tak nak timbul sebarang fitnah dan prasangka terhadap diri ku lagi selepas kejadian ditikam kawan baik sendiri...(kes lama dah nie, dah 4 tahun berlalu).

Aku ingat aku berjaya setakat nie.......sehinggalah baru2 nie....ada yg kelihatannye mahu mendekati......aku biarkan sahaja.....sebab aku tak terbuka hati nak mengenali dia dgn lebih dekat...

And the most recent, aku dah terasa akan kewujudan bunga2 ada yg mahu kenal aku dengan lebih rapat....tetapi kali ini seorg yg berlainan bangsa dan agama.....

I dont mind to be friends with sesiapa yang tahu menghormati orang lain....but dont do any silly things that would jepordise your chances to be friends with me.....

Be more gentleman, come and tell me straight that you would like to get to know me better.  Jangan dok bagi idea yang merapu....sebab tak pasal2 nanti, terus aku pangkah besar2.....

Nota kaki:  notice the changes ever since annual dinner ittew hari....yes, maybe I have the ability to "read" your behaviour accurately...

Misteri jam 6:00 petang

Misteri lah sangat kan.

Kejadian berlaku petang tadi.  Aku sibuk membuat persiapan terakhir seblm pg outstation for one week minggu depan.  Tiba2 terasa perlu yg amat nak pergi toilet.  So, aku pergi ler sengsorang, macam biasa.

Tak lewat mana pun, baru jam 6:00 petang aje.  Some more toilet tu depan surau lelaki, memang laluan yg busy ler kat situ.  Aku pun melangkah masuk.  Selalunye ada orang tapi kali ni, aku sengsorang aje.  Dah cantik dah tu.  Terus aku terasa happy sebab my peberet cubicle kosong.  In fact, semua pintu cubicle ternganga luas.

As I was walking to my peberet cubicle, tiba2 terdengar satu suara pompuan bergema, memanggil nama ku dalam nada yg menakutkan....

For few seconds aku mcm terpaku di situ....siap aku pandang semua cubicle yg ternganga tu....mana tau ada yg nk prank aku kan

Then I realise, I was the only living soul there, apa lagi.....cha alip bot ler aku....terasa jauh lak pintu keluar.....

Walaupun lutut aku sakit, aku gagahkan jugak utk berlari.....

Masuk semula opis, ada staff yg perasan muka aku pucat dan bertanya kenapa.  Aku citer aje lah kan kat diaorg....terus semua pakat pack barang dan balik....hampeh betul....

So conclusionnye, sila bawak escort bila terasa nak memerut selepas ini, wokeh.....

When blur and innocent combines......

Dialog sewaktu lunch time semalam:

X:  If possible plse change the flight.  Dont you realise, we will be taking the smaller plane, the one with the propellers outside from LBU to BKI?

Me:  Oh really??  Ok, I'll try to see whether we could change the flight.

X:  In BKI, where will we be staying?  Le Meridien right?

Me:  No, it's beyond our entitlement.  When I combine my entitlement and Siti, still we cant get a room there.  Promonade is fully booked.  They managed to book us at Klagan Hotel.

X:  Breakfast at that hotel is like having breakfast in Anwar Maju (restoran mamak kat charterfield, KLIA).  What if we combine all our entitlement, and book one room that has two rooms in the unit at Le Meridien Hotel??

Me:  (blinking2.....dlm mode tak faham apa X cakap)....You mean we book a suite and all of us stay in one unit??

X:  Yes, we sleep separate room lah....you and siti in one room, I sleep in one room....

Wokeh.....sampai the last sentence tu, aku dah terkedu....Dia nie biar betul.....Dia tau tak, kang tak pasal2 kena tangkap khalwat.....dgn 2 org pompuan pulak tu and to make things worse, sorang tu, bini orang......(geleng kepala kejap)....

Staff aku pun cakap, kat BKI lain sikit.....Jabatan Agama dia aktif walaupun nampak cam tak berapa "religious" sgt org kat sana.  Anyway, si X nie kadang2 pikiran dia blur sikit, kadang2 cam terlebih advance.  Aku tak leh lupa dialog dia masa kitaorg naik transit nak balik opis hari Isnin hari tu.

X:  Ok, we better go back to office lah.  The rest can wait for the next shuttle.

Staff aku: Ok

Dlm perjalanan:

X:  Azim, kau tak sembahyang ke?

(Dia blur coz ada 2 org lagi tu sembahyang time kitaorg call diaorg ajak balik)

Azim:  hah??  (muka terkejut ditanya soklan mcm tu)

Of course I pray.....they pray early, I will pray later.  We still have till 4:00 p.m. to perform zuhur prayer.

Kadang2 rasa cuak....kadang2 rasa lawak sangat dgn soklan2 blur dia.......

Nota kaki:  Air tenang jgn disangka tak ada buaya......lately tgk dh mcm lain mcm aje cara nye.....

 

My bff

Had early dinner appointment with my bff, Umi today.  She broke the news to me.  I was so happy for her...But then later I realised, she is going to settle down soon, insya allah, by next year.  And that leave me alone.....again.....my bff is getting hooked....and I'm nowhere close to her status.

She will be someone's fiancee by end of next week....The news somehow did ring a bell to me.....Apparently, according to her, she gave ultimatum to her bf, if he doesn't have any interest in pursuing their relationship on a serious note, she will find someone else.  

Umi did ask me how's my life, who am I seeing now etc.  I then begin to realise that I've been seeing this someone for quite a long time...off and on basis.....and there's no indication as to whether we are going to be serious or just wasting time.....Am I not brave enuf to know the truth (where I stand and where are we heading to) or just plainly playing along very well.....Am I afraid of commitment?  Hell no......but I have to admit, I do "chicken out" whenever I sense things are getting serious.....I'm afraid I cant be the perfect "other half" for someone......

I'm feeling so down at the moment.....my bff is finally settling down, I dont have someone official that I can call as "my sayang", I dont know where I stand in this so called "relationship"...am I thinking too much or what??

Anyway my dear bff, congratulations....I will remember what you told me just now that you will remain the same....you will always be my bff no matter what.......

Nota kaki:  Seriously, for the past 4 years (after the demise of my fiancee) I have more or less limit myself from going out for a date.....Guess now is the time for me to start meeting new people and make new friends.....