I thought I was strong enough today.....but again, I failed to control my tears. I thought I would remain calm when I paid "zakat" for myself alone, after so long I've been paying it for 3 pax.
Immediately after the "doa" by the "amil" I quickly left and tears started to fall endlessly. The memory came back haunting me, how you used to remind me to pay zakat way before the final week of ramadhan.....how you used to keep the zakat payment coupon in your diary, arranging it based on the years.
Tell me dear, how can I be strong when I visit you soon, the morning of first raya??? This is gonna be my first raya alone, without you.....after 14 years.....God, please give me strength to go through this "dugaan".....
bersabarlah sahabat.. hanya itu mampu aku utuskan buatmu..kehilangan orang tersayang memang memedihkan.. huhu.. anyway..sapa dia yang telah pergi tu?
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